60 months. 262 weeks. 1,821 days. 43,701 hours. Has it actually been five years since I last saw you, since…
Delicacy
This past year has easily been one of the most brutal years of my life. After losing myself and everyone…
Personal Complexities
You know a version of me. The girl who wears that old Elvis Costello shirt or the first year who…
I Am From…
I am from Jaysun and Anne Stockdell-Giesler, from an artist and a writer. From learning to never end a sentence…
I Write Best When I’m Falling Apart, But How Do I Write When I’m Falling Into Place?
I want to be writing happy things; words of growth and strength, of liberation and lack of toxicity, all of…
Wildflower
I was born a chrysanthemum, blooming in the fall and finding home in cold winters. Wrapped myself in my mother…
Playlists For People Who No Longer Read These Words
Grow Up // Paramore Seashore // The Regrettes Real Friends // Camilla Cabello Two Ghosts // Harry Styles Paper Hearts…
Rewrite The Written
They say I have your words your state of mind and your empathetic demeanor. They say I carry you and…
Coddiwomple
Life is really, truly, wholeheartedly beautiful. In every stupid overused cliche, in each song about feeling reborn, I guess there…
Sisters
Leaving you two will be the hardest thing I’ve done in years. You both bring out the best in me.…
*You’re
I almost wish we’d never met. You stole six months from me, only half of which filled with naive apprehension…
I Only Told The Moon
I feel scared and alone. Now, I know I am not actually alone; I have loving support just a call…
Did You Ever Plan On Telling Me?
You were sending me “I love you” as your lips were on her neck.
Illusionary Hopes
I need to let go of the illusion that it could have been any different. Any of it, really. I…
The Way They Leave Tells You Everything.
I shouldn’t be laying on my bedroom floor in my now dried towel at 3 A.M. after my 4th shower…
Promises
I’ve never known a promise that wasn’t broken so don’t promise me this isn’t the end when all that’ll do…
Flicker
Just a little flame quick to burn out just a little something to keep you warm between bodies is that…
Scintilla
And the worst part is, it was never even fully real to begin with. Was it? It was a rendezvous…
I Learned A Lot About Being A Friend When I Was Alone
I learned a lot about being a friend when I was alone. Crowded rooms are consistently the most complicated and…
Exodus
While I do find beauty in metaphors, I think there’s something terrifyingly fascinating about being straightforward. Here, let me explain.…
I Met Evil When I Was Only A Child
I met evil when I was only a child. It stepped onto my doorstep in late February. Evil drove as…
Before You
Others have sat in this seat before you. Some with the same name some with similar minds some with the…
Emotional Sensations
I can feel it. I can already feel it and I’m scared. I can feel the sun from your eyes…
Augie
Echoed footsteps on cold tile and sisterly giggles filling the murky summer air. “Augie slow down! Your legs are toooo…
The Last Six Months, Sonicallly
Someone New // Banks Hard Feelings/Loveless // Lorde Supercut // Lorde You Should Talk // Fletcher Sad Beautiful Tragic //…
Liquid Love
I have so much love within me so much luminous love and sometimes, I find it overflowing and spilling into…
Four Years, 224 Posts, And 57,288 Words Later
Here we are. It’s been four years since this little blog came into being. Four entire years of poetry, prose,…
Sweet Nothings
You call me sweet little nothings and each breath turns them into somethings. Your lips have the ability to melt…
Never Read
I have posts upon poems that will never see the light of day, not because they aren’t worthy but rather…
Maybe Meant To Be, But Not To Last.
Our lives are full of turning points, and sometimes those turning points happen have two eyes and a name. Some…
Kairosclerosis
For the first time in my life, I am happy alone. I don’t yearn for someone, for somebody to hold…
A Personal Revolution
It’s so much harder to write when you’re happy. When you’re drowning and overwhelmed by emotion, the thoughts pour onto…
Your Old Things, Take Them
I’ve got your stuff all pressed and boxed up, the dust collected atop and all. I don’t want this any…
Where Are You?
I promised I’d always find you but you’ve stolen the sun and now I’m lost.
You’re Going To Live Forever In Me
1,461 nights ago, your heart stopped in your chest and starting beating alongside mine. Your soul left your body and…
Saudade
4 years ago today I was told you wouldn’t make it. 4 years ago today I didn’t think I would…
I’m Freezing Over
I don’t understand how you can claim to love someone still so deeply yet feed them icy silence, ignoring their…
Bridges, Burning.
You stood there watching from afar as I writhed gasping for breath as my lungs filled with smoke from the…
Tangible Regret
I’m your tangible regret, aren’t I?
Revival
There are journals and canvases scattered all over the floor left from my 2 AM song lyrics and watercolor ramblings…
Writer’s Decongestant
Now I know that this is not a time for us. There are too many miles separating and not enough…
Bonfire Heart
I was aimlessly flipping through my journals aged three years, only to see a letter I had begun to write…
Desiderium
I believe a person has multiple soulmates; one for each part of who they are. I wholeheartedly believe you were…
I Wrote This For You
I am writing this for you. The you who knows me through and through, despite what you may believe, anymore.…
Conversations
“Your hair is a bit shorter now.” You tell me this while your hand begins to reach towards the ends…
Everything I’ve Loved Became Everything I’ve Lost
I have a bad habit of not realizing what I have until I let it go and this time that…
Nepenthe
Sitting in the passenger seat as you leaned over the middle console, serenading me between kisses, promising to share our…
Do You?
I want to ask what you think of me. I want to know your candid thoughts when you hear my…
I Used To Hold Those Eyes In Mine
I am terrified I will see you look at her the way you used to look at me and I…
The Paradox Of Unhealing
What do you do when a wound was never given time to heal? It’s been left untreated for months continuously…
Porcelain Prose 