In 5 Years’ Time

60 months. 262 weeks. 1,821 days. 43,701 hours. Has it actually been five years since I last saw you, since … More

Delicacy

This past year has easily been one of the most brutal years of my life. After losing myself and everyone … More

Personal Complexities

You know a version of me. The girl who wears that old Elvis Costello shirt or the first year who … More

I Am From…

I am from Jaysun and Anne Stockdell-Giesler, from an artist and a writer. From learning to never end a sentence … More

I Write Best When I’m Falling Apart, But How Do I Write When I’m Falling Into Place?

I want to be writing happy things; words of growth and strength, of liberation and lack of toxicity, all of … More

Wildflower

I was born a chrysanthemum, blooming in the fall and finding home in cold winters. Wrapped myself in my mother … More

Playlists For People Who No Longer Read These Words

Grow Up // Paramore Seashore // The Regrettes Real Friends // Camilla Cabello Two Ghosts // Harry Styles Paper Hearts … More

Rewrite The Written

They say I have your words your state of mind and your empathetic demeanor. They say I carry you and … More

Coddiwomple

Life is really, truly, wholeheartedly beautiful. In every stupid overused cliche, in each song about feeling reborn, I guess there … More

Sisters

Leaving you two will be the hardest thing I’ve done in years. You both bring out the best in me. … More

*You’re

I almost wish we’d never met. You stole six months from me, only half of which filled with naive apprehension … More

I Only Told The Moon

I feel scared and alone. Now, I know I am not actually alone; I have loving support just a call … More

Did You Ever Plan On Telling Me?

You were sending me “I love you” as your lips were on her neck.

Illusionary Hopes

I need to let go of the illusion that it could have been any different. Any of it, really. I … More

The Way They Leave Tells You Everything.

I shouldn’t be laying on my bedroom floor in my now dried towel at 3 A.M. after my 4th shower … More

Promises

I’ve never known a promise that wasn’t broken so don’t promise me this isn’t the end when all that’ll do … More

Flicker

Just a little flame quick to burn out just a little something to keep you warm between bodies is that … More

Scintilla

And the worst part is, it was never even fully real to begin with. Was it? It was a rendezvous … More

I Learned A Lot About Being A Friend When I Was Alone

I learned a lot about being a friend when I was alone. Crowded rooms are consistently the most complicated and … More

Exodus

While I do find beauty in metaphors, I think there’s something terrifyingly fascinating about being straightforward. Here, let me explain. … More

I Met Evil When I Was Only A Child

I met evil when I was only a child. It stepped onto my doorstep in late February. Evil drove as … More

Before You

Others have sat in this seat before you. Some with the same name some with similar minds some with the … More

Emotional Sensations

I can feel it. I can already feel it and I’m scared. I can feel the sun from your eyes … More

Augie

Echoed footsteps on cold tile and sisterly giggles filling the murky summer air. “Augie slow down! Your legs are toooo … More

The Last Six Months, Sonicallly

Someone New // Banks Hard Feelings/Loveless // Lorde Supercut // Lorde You Should Talk // Fletcher Sad Beautiful Tragic // … More

Liquid Love

I have so much love within me so much luminous love and sometimes, I find it overflowing and spilling into … More

Four Years, 224 Posts, And 57,288 Words Later

Here we are. It’s been four years since this little blog came into being. Four entire years of poetry, prose, … More

Sweet Nothings

You call me sweet little nothings and each breath turns them into somethings. Your lips have the ability to melt … More

Never Read

I have posts upon poems that will never see the light of day, not because they aren’t worthy but rather … More

Maybe Meant To Be, But Not To Last.

Our lives are full of turning points, and sometimes those turning points happen have two eyes and a name. Some … More

Kairosclerosis

For the first time in my life, I am happy alone. I don’t yearn for someone, for somebody to hold … More

A Personal Revolution

It’s so much harder to write when you’re happy. When you’re drowning and overwhelmed by emotion, the thoughts pour onto … More

Your Old Things, Take Them

I’ve got your stuff all pressed and boxed up, the dust collected atop and all. I don’t want this any … More

Where Are You?

I promised I’d always find you but you’ve stolen the sun and now I’m lost.

You’re Going To Live Forever In Me

1,461 nights ago, your heart stopped in your chest and starting beating alongside mine. Your soul left your body and … More

Saudade

4 years ago today I was told you wouldn’t make it. 4 years ago today I didn’t think I would … More

I’m Freezing Over

I don’t understand how you can claim to love someone still so deeply yet feed them icy silence, ignoring their … More

Bridges, Burning.

You stood there watching from afar as I writhed gasping for breath as my lungs filled with smoke from the … More

Tangible Regret

I’m your tangible regret, aren’t I?  

Revival

There are journals and canvases scattered all over the floor left from my 2 AM song lyrics and watercolor ramblings … More

Writer’s Decongestant

Now I know that this is not a time for us. There are too many miles separating and not enough … More

Bonfire Heart

I was aimlessly flipping through my journals aged three years, only to see a letter I had begun to write … More

Desiderium

I believe a person has multiple soulmates; one for each part of who they are. I wholeheartedly believe you were … More

I Wrote This For You

I am writing this for you. The you who knows me through and through, despite what you may believe, anymore. … More

Conversations

“Your hair is a bit shorter now.” You tell me this while your hand begins to reach towards the ends … More

Everything I’ve Loved Became Everything I’ve Lost

I have a bad habit of not realizing what I have until I let it go and this time that … More

Nepenthe

Sitting in the passenger seat as you leaned over the middle console, serenading me between kisses, promising to share our … More

Do You?

I want to ask what you think of me. I want to know your candid thoughts when you hear my … More

I Used To Hold Those Eyes In Mine

I am terrified I will see you look at her the way you used to look at me and I … More

The Paradox Of Unhealing

What do you do when a wound was never given time to heal? It’s been left untreated for months continuously … More